Have you ever been in a room full of people and still felt all alone? Well, that happened to me this weekend. Over the last 2 years, there has been a sitution in my life that is/was can you say.... Less than Favorable... Well, this weekend I was in a room for an event with quite a few people that were involved in that situation. I still remember very vividly all the things that have happened in the past and I was very hurt by a lot of it and some of the people that hurt me were there, but I feel like I've moved on with my life... And regardless, I can always put on a pretty face for a few hours for the sake of a good friend, be polite, and respectful. For the few hours I spent with these people this weekend, no one spoke to me and I just felt like they didn't want me there... I can't say that I didn't expect it to be that way, but there was a part of me that hoped that we had all moved past it and for the sake of the mutual friend that we all share could be adults for a couple hours. I didn't get a hello, how are you, nice to see you, kiss my ass... Not one word!!
Am I sorry I attended, ABSOLUTELY NOT... I wouldn't have missed it for the world... I'm a big girl, I know my actions weren't always something I was proud of, but I can admit that and move on... I don't have to carry around hate and blame other people for the things I did... I'll own them, and apparently that's a lesson they haven't learned... I'm a bigger person than that, and always will be!
I guess in all this, I have to say I learned a lot about myself and the way I was raised... I have to thank my parents for that... Regardless of what happened, I can be a respectful, polite adult to anyone, no matter what... And that's something to be proud of :-)
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